..krissified..

I… I know i’m a horrible person, i know i know. But what can i do about that? Probably nothing. Nothing at all.

I try not to show it outside, but in fact, i’m bored and tired of everything. The same old people, the same old shit around, it’s annoying! People trying to act cute, people being extra, etc and etc. They annoying me to no end. It’s disturbing to try and be friends with them, but without them, i would be all along, and i don’t want that.

That’s why, i’m a horrible, horrible, sick, sick, person. I don’t like my personality. It changed and it sucks. Why did this happen, arh? Ask dad. Ask mom. I don’t know. It’s all their fault.

I’ve been putting the blame on others for a while now. Why? Because i just can’t bear to admit that it’s all my fault. All mine. I’m wrong in so many ways, but i just don’t want to admit it. Heh. What kind of shitty human am i?

I try to hold onto the past, not wanting to step into the future, but in the end, all i end up doing is hurting myself. I try to hold together the pieces of my friendship, but in the end, it all just shatters and there’s nothing i can do to put them back again. Humpty - Dumpty. eh?

You know the personality test?

Hehehe.

Spontaneous Idealists are creative, lively and open-minded persons. They are humorous and dispose of a contagious zest for life. Their enthusiasm and sparkling energy inspires others and sweeps them along (I’m not sure about that). They enjoy being together with other people and often have an uncanny intuition for their motivations and potential. Spontaneous Idealists are masters of communication and very amusing and gifted entertainers (Master of communication? Not sure). Fun and variety are guaranteed when they are around. However, they are sometimes somewhat too impulsive in dealing with others and can hurt people without really meaning to do so, due to their direct and sometimes critical nature (Not sure about the direct and sometimes critical nature).

This personality type is a keen and alert observer; they miss nothing which is going on around them (Miss nothing? Not sure). In extreme cases, they tend to be oversensitive and exaggeratedly alert and are inwardly always ready to jump. Life for them is an exciting drama full of emotionality (I don’t know about drama, but emotions? Yeah). However, they quickly become bored when things repeat themselves and too much detailed work and care is required. Their creativity, their imaginativeness and their originality become most noticeable when developing new projects and ideas - they then leave the meticulous implementation of the whole to others. On the whole, Spontaneous Idealists attach great value to their inner and outward independence and do not like accepting a subordinate role. They therefore have problems with hierarchies and authorities.

If you have a Spontaneous Idealist as your friend, you will never be bored; with them, you can enjoy life to the full and celebrate the best parties. At the same time, they are warm, sensitive, attentive and always willing to help. If Spontaneous Idealists have just fallen in love, the sky is full of violins and their new partners are showered with attention and affection. This type then bubbles over with charm, tenderness and imagination. But, unfortunately, it soon becomes boring for them once the novelty has worn off. Boring everyday life in a partnership is not for them so that many Spontaneous Idealists slip from one affair into another. However, should the partner manage to keep their curiosity alive and not let routine and familiarity gain the upper hand, Spontaneous Idealists can be inspiring and loving partners.

Adjectives:

spontaneous, enthusiastic, idealistic, extroverted, theoretical, emotional, relaxed, friendly, optimistic, charming, helpful, independent, individualistic, creative, dynamic, lively, humorous, full of zest for life, imaginative, changeable, adaptable, loyal, sensitive, inspiring, sociable, communicative, erratic, curious, open, vulnerable.